1216 Reptile Food, and an Abstract Artist
1216 Reptile Food, and an Abstract Artist
POF
16th December, 2019
Connor: Hello again, Michael.
I would like to explore more of my Essence’s time living in the Sirius System.
In our most-recent exchange, you described my lifetime as a child who was discovered and euthanized during the culling. When ‘I’ was torn away from my parents, a wound was created which you said took lifetimes to heal. In future exchanges with you and Troy, I’d like to explore the story of how that wound was healed, as well as the story of the war which broke out after the Caretakers began rescuing us, so if you can prepare records on those topics for future delivery through Troy, that would be spectacular.
For today, let’s focus on the beginning of my Essence’s story as a human, and in our next POF we will move on to the Caretaker-Pleiadian War.
Did my Essence live any lifetimes in the Sirius System before my lifetime as the euthanized child? Can you describe them? I’m particularly interested in knowing more about my very first Human lifetime.
MEntity:
If we are reading your records correctly, we can see that there were two lifetimes previous to the lifetime mentioned here.
The first was spent in what might be described as a constant state of panic and "your" main activity was staring with wide eyes at everything. You developed mental complications from your lack of sleep and wore your body out. You fell behind when you were gathering food with others and fell into a deep sleep. You died in your sleep as a large reptilian creature carried you off for food.
ConnorB: Well that's awful, but somehow amusing.
MEntity: The second lifetime was spent in constant hyperactivity and unruly behavior as you discovered you liked to slap others in the face or back of the head. You were quite a nuisance, but tolerated. This lifetime ended when you slapped a large reptilian creature in the head.
Connor: Jesus Christ, leave the reptiles alone! That is too funny.
MEntity: The first Human lifetime (lived on Earth) was spent clinging to anyone familiar. She rarely let go and that lifetime was quite similar to the first in Sirius where the panic and constant terror and awe were difficult to process. As that life was part of a Cluster regarding the theme of Panic/Anxiety, she did take a step in the direction of evolving away from dying from this anxiety. She found ways to bring her focus back to the safety of the familiar by creating what would be considered drawings. She would arrange items in ways that were abstract to an observer, but were "pictures" to her. Similar to how a constellation invokes entire and elaborate pictures, so did her piles of debris. This would later morph into being useful during the lifetimes focused on Astronomy/Astrology.
ConnorB: Interesting, sounds like you're describing my first lifetime on Earth. That isn't what I intended for you to describe, but it is still fascinating.
MEntity:
We may be reading the records and your question incorrectly.
We will correct this in further exchanges.
ConnorB: By first "human lifetime" I meant, first lifetime in my Grand Cycle. No worries, we can flesh it out later.
MEntity: Then that would be the initial lifetime of panic/anxiety in Sirius.
ConnorB: Correct. Thank you!
See you next time.
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It should be said here, on public record, that in this life I have always loved reptiles. Spiders are living proof that Tao makes mistakes, but I've never had any issues with reptiles. Those first two lifetimes were very funny to me. Something about passing out from being sleep deprived, only to get carried away by a reptile for dinner, really tickles my funny bone. The slap-happy lifetime is hilarious for obvious reasons.
Funnily enough, I met one of my closest friends when I was 11 or 12 years old, and I asked him if he wanted a five-star. When he asked me what a five-star was, I simply repeated my question: do you want a five-star? He shrugged and said yes, and I smacked him on the back hard enough to leave a red handprint (the five-star). Somehow that led to a deep and ongoing friendship. Perhaps I slapped him 6 million years ago.
I expected Michael to focus most of their time on fleshing out the first lifetime, which is what I meant by "First Human Lifetime". Our lives on Sirius were as Human as our lives on Earth, even though the bodies were different. I should have been clearer in my phrasing, because Michael interpreted it as "I am particularly interested in my first lifetime lived on Earth." So getting information on my Essences fourth lifetime, my first Earthly life, was a lovely surprise.
To go in order, so far we have:
First Life: Panicked Reptile Dinner (Sirius)
Second Life: Slap-Happy Reptile Dinner (Sirius)
Third Life: Euthanized Child (Sirius)
Fourth Life: Dead Space Baby (On a spaceship during transport to Earth)
Fifth Life: Anxious Abstract Artist (Earth)