Michael session 18. Jan, channeled by Babylove

Posted January 18, 2023

MEntity: Hello, Katja. We are here, now, and can begin.

Katja: Hello, Michael! I would like to ask about my health. My right shoulder has been painful a long time and out of order few months. First diagnose was rotator cuff syndrome, but now it is likely a frozen shoulder, it doesn't move normally any more and is not going better. Pain started in summer 2021, I know that I worked too much, but there was also emotional pain and worries. I had also hormonal imbalance and low iron levels, which is both better now. What is the metaphysical reason of this condition of my shoulder and what I can do for healing it, physically, mentally and emotionally? Do I have unconscious patterns which harm my health?

MEntity:

One moment, Katja, while we look into this.

From what we can see, the main "metaphysical" correlation is what you have already touched on: worries and stress. Not just worries and stress but a prolonged pattern of worries and stress that have to do with "carrying the weight of the world" on your shoulders. We think the right shoulder is significant because it reflects the weight of responsibility you place on your doing or actions in order to "fix" the sense of burden, relieve the stress, worries, and fear.

We do not think there is a "quick fix" for this, but it will require a patient nurturing of your trust in yourself and your ability to flow with events and deal with circumstances as they come, rather than worrying about them before they have materialized.

In addition to this patient nurturing of your trust in yourself, working with a competent physical therapist and their exercises for bringing back a greater range of mobility will be helpful.

Katja: I think you are right, I can validate it. Greatest worry and most constant is about money. Can I trust that I will not be in serious trouble with money, although I cannot work and earn money now?

MEntity:

We cannot predict whether or not you will be "in serious trouble with money". What we can say is that your presence and trust in yourself and your capacity to choose, your capacity to receive/be inspired, express yourself/communicate, and choose/act in response (not reaction) to circumstances is where your safety and security lies. You will not ever be able to control the ups and downs, ebb and flow of money, but you can be present and respond accordingly when appropriate to the circumstances.

Also, you can nurture your trust and presence NOW so that you can be creative and not simply reacting and responding to events.

What we mean by this is that you would do better to set your worries and fears aside NOW if there is no threat and place your attention on your presence. Talk to essence and hear what essence has to say about what can be done or not. Talk to trusted friends. Follow your impulses and intuition which may be telling you to follow-up on a "hunch" or piece of advice. However, they may be telling you to PAUSE, RELAX, and TRUST.
Your conditioned mind will spin in fear. We are encouraging you to be with essence, AS essence.

Katja: I understand. I will try that. I am aware, that my Essence doesn't worry in that scale than me.

MEntity:

You cannot live there, and your presence with essence and as essence will fluctuate, but you can RETURN to essence whenever you need to RESET and return to TRUST and GUIDANCE.

We will share one more perspective. When the pattern of life is interrupted as it is for you now, it is an opportunity. It is an invitation toward more wakefulness, more consciousness. It is ok to do what you can to support yourself practically, but you can also choose to use this time, to trust this time, to trust these circumstances, for they are reflections of synchronicity and deeper essence processes. In some ways they are the "answers" to "questions" you have had in the past. In some ways, they reflect deeper desires. In other words, IT IS ALL YOU. This is an invitation to soften into your experience and trust its wisdom. Listen to its message, and trust the process.

Katja:

Second question is about an old trauma. I would like to ask your opinion to situation, which happened when I was 12, my 6th class at school. We moved to another city, where I didn't know anybody. I befriended with a boy, who was first very nice to me. His name is H. We played and discussed a lot and spent almost all time in school together. after few weeks he suddenly stopped to talk to me. He ignored me totally, and later mocked me to others. I was kind of anchored to him, and when he abandoned me, no one else wanted to be with me either, and I wasn't able to require explanation from him or make friends in the class. He was actually my first love and broke my heart. Other kids started bully me, and our teacher spoke, that she will not wonder why, because I am free passenger in the class. It led me to be bullied next three years and be lonely and outcast all my remaining school years. I feel that it wounded deeply my ability to trust and love. I am still questioning, if I belong in my community. I still fear sudden abandoning from those who I love and who love me. I need often confirm, am I still loved.

Was karma created or paid there? Did it trigger past life memories/resonance? Was there an agreement with H, which he rejected, or was there some shitty monad between us? What was the role of our teacher (MB) in this situation, why she "gave a permission" to bully and discriminate me? And most important, how could I heal the wounding in me?

MEntity:

One moment.

There does not appear to be any karma involved in this scenario with the fragment known as H. From what we can see, this fragment was reacting to his own fears. Your two essences know each other, and we think the fragment was remembering past-life karma and trauma with "you". He did not then have the consciousness to respond rather than react. However, the fragment known as M was repaying a "debt" in this scenario where the theme was abandonment. Though this was not "the goal," nor was it arranged this way in order to teach you a lesson, it did activate a self-karmic theme that your essence was intent on continuing to explore this lifetime around the theme of WORTHINESS OF LOVE (I am worthy of love/I am unworthy of love).

Katja: It really is a big theme (in my life)

MEntity:

You have already begun to heal the wounds related to this "trauma". Part of this process is happening because you have been able to ask in direct and indirect ways for the confirmation that you are loved. What will continue the healing is in your awareness of and communication of the truth that these patterns are not about the other people in your life. They are about you and your wounding. Your healing is not their responsibility. When you are aware of this, and you communicate this to your "community," then they are relieved of the pressure of be responsible for your wounding and healing. This looks like you asking for their love, affection, comfort, reassurance, while at the same time letting them know that you are learning to own your wounding and heal it. You are learning that just because you fear you are not loved or worthy of love does not mean that it is true. You are learning that you can trust that others choosing to be in your life love you, until there is a reason to remove that trust.

And you are becoming aware of the truth that due to your fears and wounding, you will "see" reasons to distrust even when these reasons are not valid. As you continue to take responsibility for your healing and communicate with others about your process, you will gain more clarity about the love that is in your life and about who can be trusted and who cannot.

Katja: I feel that it is true. I am evolving in this. Sometimes it is painful, when I fall to distrust. (I am crying)

MEntity: Yes, you are learning. You are healing. It is important to remember that when you experience pain and fall into distrust, you are still worthy of your own love. In those moments when you choose to love yourself, to not abandon yourself, you are doing much to heal these wounds. You are doing GOOD WORK.

Katja: Thank you, it means a lot to hear it from you.

MEntity: We will conclude for today. Goodbye for now, Katja, and good day to you.

Katja: Goodbye and thank you, Michael and Babylove!

# end of session

Note: I would like to make a blog text, but since I haven't a blog yet, I wanted to share it here. This time has been challenging, but I see that slowly by slowly I can go forward. I have thought a lot my relationships in this life, what challenges I have had and what I'm learned and learning. Somehow it isn't surprise, that I have a self-karmic theme around my worthiness, but somehow I was surprised by the breadth of this theme. Michael's opinion relieved me for blaming anyone else. 

What is going to my shoulder trouble, situation is a bit better, because I found a physiotherapist,  who suffered in same trouble and I think his exercises helped me. I will have an operation in March, they will manipulate it under anesthesia, so I will get my mobility back.