0922 Essence Report- King Seeks GPS
0922 Essence Report- King Seeks GPS
Entry posted September 22, 2017
I dug this up to repost on the new TLE.
MEntity:
BEYOND YOU: a look at who “you” are beyond this lifetime, including comments about your Essence Twin, your Casting within your Entity, your Frequency, and your Focused/Creative Energy Ratio.
Your Essence chose the Role of King after having cycled through Server, Scholar, Warrior, Artisan, Sage, Warrior, Priest, Scholar, and Warrior. This is the first Grand Cycle as King. As we know the process of deduction you have gone through in determining your Role, we will say that this is not unusual for most Kings, in general, but in particular it is most common in a Cycle that is the first time as the Role.
As Kings are the most “solid” of all Roles, requirements for certain parameters to be in place for fulfilling that Role tend to need to be more tangible, as well, and this is often not the case. 1 out of every 30 lives or so may actually have conditions that allow for the more obvious traits of a King to shine, but otherwise, the weight of incarnations falls squarely on the Casting for the most part, so the vastness of Cardinality of a King can fall into the confines of an Ordinal Role for many lifetimes, generating a rather challenging process of incarnation. In earlier lives, conditions are easier to move into place for the King to have its Kingdom, but as the Soul grows older, conditions begin to become less manageable and less interesting, so that the “kingdom” begins to narrow to the size of a tribe, to the size of a community, to the size of a family, to the size of a small circle of friends, down to random office politics, for instance, and down to the size of a Mate Agreement, and finally down to none at all. When the “kingdom” is narrowed to none at all, then the consciousness is made to turn its focus of Mastery over to the Self, and this begins one of the most painful and terrifying processes for the King. There is an irony in this process, however, because before the King “owns” the reality of the Role, the disorientation, restlessness, scrambling, and distraction contributes to a strong disgust for the self in a way that is difficult for other Roles to comprehend, but once the ownership of the Role comes into consciousness, however it does so, there is a tremendous relief and a freeing from the self-disgust. The self-disgust comes from the profound sense of ineffectiveness and presence that the King without a Kingdom can feel, but the relief and profound gratitude come from the realization by the King that the greatest Kingdom a King will ever Master is within. Then the joy returns. The calm returns. The focus comes. And life transforms into a dynamic supporting cast for the greatest challenge the King has never imagined: himself or herself. No longer is the self a simple and repulsive weight to carry around and endure to the end of the life, but becomes a most fascinating territory that somehow went unnoticed for aeons.
That being said, the true nature of any King is never fully realized until the Causal Plane.
Your Energy Ratio is rather balanced, but we see your Essence’s Frequency as being rather high at 79, which has often been your “saving grace” in that this allows for some sense of “floating through” the Physical Plane, even as you may not have wished to be a part of it. This Frequency has allowed you to store layers upon layers of experiences that you would later “get back to” in life, and this helped keep your body and psyche from giving up.
We see that your Artisan Essence Twin was incarnated as a male, but is no longer alive. We do not think you met. This Twin, however, has recently, in the past two years, become available as a Guide.
UBER-PATTERNS: a look at how some of the key dynamics of your Essence Design have shown up across lifetimes, including the overall arcing theme that contributes to the experience and knowledge of your Entity.
We might describe your Essence’s arcing theme across lifetimes as COMING HOME. There are other ways we could describe this arc, but we think this will resonate the most accurately to this incarnation. By “Coming Home,” we mean that there is a consistency across your Essence’s lifetimes of being “Lost,” and then being “Found.” Nearly every incarnation has moved through a process of beginning in near complete bewilderment, then through a long phase of “fake it ‘til you make it,” to a joyous sense of finally “coming home.” When the joy of “coming home” is experienced by the Personality, instead of in death, the impact is rather amazing. We had several Kings in our own Entity who shared a similar pattern, and there are few words to describe this process of self-acceptance and self- awareness that blossoms for the King who has lost his or her way. This pattern helps contribute to the bank of experiences and knowledge for your Entity, and this allow many from your Cadre and Entity to refer to those records for help in supporting any Personality who has come to feel lost. Often it is a race against time for the Personality to feel it is “found” before death, and when that process begins within the lifetime, the acceleration can feel as if a new life has sprung from nowhere. Your Essence and Personality are currently in that process.
THE CURRENT YOU: a look at current lifetime themes, status of your Essence Twin, how your positive and Negative Poles show up, and any obstacles and solutions to fully manifesting Essence through this Personality.
Most of the patterns we see in the current lifetime might fall into the phrasing that is also the Life Task, which is to “turn Fractures into Facets.” What we mean by this is that there are many fragments within the self that have come to be neglected, hidden, abused, some even nearly-destroyed, all being fractures of the self and psyche over the first part of this life. As you begin to “find yourself,” these fractures no longer act as fragments that are littered within, or across time, but become various Facets of the self that can function as part of the whole that is truly “you.”
When you embracing of Essence and manifesting True Personality, we might say that it manifests as your BEING FUN. This is because when you are manifesting True Personality, and your Essence is fully present, you actually LIKE LIVING. And when you like living, you are a lot of fun.
When you are rejecting of Essence and manifesting False Personality, we might say that it shows up as GOING DARK. This is almost literal, in the sense that your psyche, heart, and mind close so much to the life that there is very little left of consciousness to run the life beyond Anger. There is a reverence for life by this point in your incarnational processes, enough so as to “keep the lights on, even when no one is home,” but this darkness spreads into nearly everything when it takes hold.
The key to your returning to Essence and True Personality, in your case, will always be through your CONSCIOUS CHOICE TO CARE. When your Realism falls away from Objective to Subjective, there is a tendency to deny that subjectivity because it is too painful, but Subjectivity is important for the process of gaining Objectivity. As an evolving soul, and as a maturing adult, it has become clearer and clearer that at least some of the key to freeing oneself from the dark, and to find that sense of wholeness and home again, is to allow yourself to care. To get dirty with emotions. To get messy with history. To allow room for all of you; even the parts deemed the ugliest. It has become clear to you, and to your Essence, that the only way you will ever find Home, is if you bring all of you with you.