20150324 Follow-up on Breakup; Essence Contact; Internal Monads

20150324 Follow-up on Breakup; Essence Contact; Internal Monads

March 24, 2015

1. During one of our last sessions you told me the following regarding my varying feelings after the breakup with my mate: "The comfort and clarity you feel is relative to a new layer that is now in place that is yours again." Would you please describe this new layer? And why is it mine AGAIN?

MEntity:

That "new" layer is TRUST. Trust is an inherent quality of Essence. Trust is not something that must be learned or gained, but remembered when lost.

It is yours "again" because it is being remembered.

Trust is not blind faith, but is based in intelligence and experience. One does not distrust the chair and worry that it will betray your sitting down. This is not because the chair earned your trust, but because your experience is MOSTLY that a chair does not collapse. If a chair were to collapse, then it is dealt with, but most of the time, the trust is there. If chairs were more likely to collapse, then trust in their likelihood to collapse would bring about a different dynamic. But if chairs do not collapse most of the time, but you approach a chair AS IF it will likely collapse, it is often only because of a wounding from a recent collapse, not because chairs collapse.

And so it is with relationships and intimacy and people. MOST relationships, intimacy, and people bring to Essence the experiences of confidence, comfort, and evolution that can be trusted.

But when one is wounded, this can be forgotten.

As you remembered, the layer of trust returned. Your Essence returned.

When was it lost?

MEntity:

It was never truly lost. Only forgotten. We know you can determine when this was forgotten on your own, but it appears to have been a cumulative process so that it "sneaked up" on you. Wounding began in your teens, but the greatest blows seem to have come in the past 10 years.

However, instead of breaking, it seems you have decided enough is enough. It was time to wake up again.

It seems that you returned to own the responsibility for your own sense of trust, and are done blaming or deferring to others.

Being hurt and disappointed in a relationship is not the same thing as losing trust in yourself and others. Letting the hurt and disappointment be exactly what it is, frees you.

2. For the last four weeks I'm experiencing something that feels like Essence Contact. I'm able to talk to "myself" and I'm getting answers. I even have a name for that inner part of me: Röschen. Is it right that I'm talking to my Essence?

MEntity:

As for your talking to Essence, this is true. It seems you also formed/found your oversoul name. As long as the responses coming are gentle, guiding, and do not move into insistence and urgency, then it is Essence.

We can suggest an enhancement to your physical environment by adding flowers. This helps to connect to an instinctive linking across time and lifetimes to your Essence and various personalities who chose wholeness. It is not that flowers are magical, but that they are symbolic and mean something to several of your incarnations for various reasons.

3. I'd like to know in which state of my 4th Internal Monad I currently am. What am I working on in that stage?

MEntity:

You appear to be in Stage 6, Magnetization, having passed through Repulsion and into Attraction. This is a Stage where one begins to invite negotiations for Agreements that would serve the life, life task, and adapt to the shedding of old ideals and ideas about the self that are no longer valid. It is a process of facing the truth, so tears can often be a part of the process, moods, and extremes of emotion, but this levels out as one begins to like herself again.

Sometimes it is not obvious that one stopped liking oneself, but it tends to be obvious when one returns to liking oneself again.

"Liking" oneself means you have finally freed yourself from negative motivation, and aim now toward positive motivations.

In other words, you open up to pleasure as a path, and leave the path of self-punishment, blame, and disappointment behind. Or, at least, bring more balance.

We will conclude here for today, 15-36-T. You continue to grow in your wholeness. Agape is not out of reach.

Goodbye, for now.